Aurie and trust

Aurie has been feeling much better in the last few weeks. She had done Ho'oponopono more often and it clearly helped her to feel more calm inside. She felt like she could breathe freely again. But above all, she no longer felt powerless against the shadows that she could perceive.

Her grandmother had often sat quietly with her by the pond or on the sofa recently. She had taken Aurie's hand and held her tightly. Aurie practiced letting the love from her heart flow to her grandmother and she could feel that it calmed her down. When she looked at her, she could feel her grandmother's love flowing to her. But there was also something else: quiet gratitude. Aurie wished that her grandmother would one day find the courage to talk about what had happened to her. But that would probably take a while.

Aurie ran through the garden picking daisies. It was such a beautiful summer day and Aurie wanted to make herself a flower wreath and dance around the garden. She hummed happily to herself. When she looked up, she saw Noah standing by her apple tree, watching her. Aurie picked up her daisies and walked over to him with a spring in her step.

“What are you doing here?” she asked him, spreading her flower carpet in front of him.

“Watching you,” said Noah, grinning.

Aurie laughed. "I saw that. But you never come to me without a reason." She looked at him and was simply happy to see him beaming. That strengthened her cheerful mood.

"I want to discuss an important topic with you today." Noah sat down on her flower carpet and Aurie had to grin. "An angel on a bed of flowers," she thought.

Noah laughed happily and winked at her. Aurie began to weave her flowers together, grinning.

“What do you know about trust?” she asked Noah.

Aurie looked up and was silent for a moment. "I think children are better at trusting than adults. Adults have somehow forgotten how to do that. There are only a few of them who can still do that," Aurie said thoughtfully. "Adults are more afraid. They have no connection to their hearts."

"Well observed," said Noah. "Children are still firmly connected to their hearts. They act out of love and approach everything and everyone with this openness. Trust arises from love. They expect to be loved in return for the love they give. And because they have not had any other experiences, they have no reason to doubt it." He looked at her with a gentle smile. "What else do you know about that?"

“If I trust, then it is easier for me, even when things get difficult,” said Aurie thoughtfully.

“Do you know why that is?” asked Noah, leaning forward.

Aurie thought about it. "Well, I don't think about why the situation is like this. I trust that there will be a solution or a way out of the situation. Often I don't see it yet. But I know that I always have support from my helpers, like you or other angels, my grandmother and many others. And if I trust that I will be helped, then I can better sense what I should do. If I get angry because a situation is like this and I resist it..." Aurie had to smile because Noah had often pointed out her inner resistance. "... then I can't perceive the inner help very well. And then the situation is much more difficult because my head is working against it. It's so loud with its thoughts that don't help me at all. And then there's much more fear about what else could happen." Aurie sighed.

"You've already learned a lot," Noah nodded in agreement. "Fear prevents trust. Fear arises in the head, from thoughts about the story your head tells about the situation. Fear leads to separation. Remember what I taught you about this. You are then not connected to your heart and therefore cannot hear your inner guidance. Fear feeds doubt about the correctness of inner impulses and people often act in the opposite way. I have already told you that fear and trust cannot exist side by side."

"Why do children lose their trust?" Aurie wanted to know. "It is a huge gift to be so trusting. Everything would be much easier in the world if everyone trusted each other and treated each other like that."

"That's right," Noah said. "There are two reasons why children lose their trust. One reason is that adults teach them not to listen to their inner impulses and tell them to act against them."

Aurie remembered when she was in the city with her father once. She was maybe 3 years old at the time. The two of them passed a park and there was an old man sitting on the ground at the entrance, dressed in tattered clothes, with a hat in front of him, begging. He was so sad and Aurie felt very sorry for him. She could sense that the man was lonely. Aurie went over and wanted to sit next to him, to be with him. But her father pulled her away and said that it was not appropriate, that you don't sit with beggars. Aurie was still deeply sad and upset when she thought back on it.

"That's a perfect example," she confirmed to Noah, who of course had noticed what she was thinking. "When situations like this happen frequently, children learn to ignore their inner impulses and act against them. They then become increasingly distrustful of what they feel and perceive. We can see what this does to adults all over the world. They sense, for example, that they are not happy in a job, and yet they stay there." Noah paused briefly.

"Another reason is that children experience that their openness and trust are exploited because they meet someone who does not treat them in the same way and does not act out of love. Because children do not expect anyone to behave like that towards them, the shock and disappointment is very great. They then begin to close their hearts to a certain extent in order to protect themselves. The more often this experience is had, the more mistrust that arises from this begins to be directed not only outwards. Children always question themselves first and look for the fault in themselves. This also arises from basic trust in the world and in others. And so their inner impulses are also questioned and children lose their basic trust in themselves and their inner connection.

Aurie remembered her grandfather, who had already died. Aurie had been very small then. She had really liked him and had always been his favorite. But one day she had said "no" when he wanted her to sit on his lap and give him a kiss. He had reacted defensively to her as if she had done something very bad and had scolded her for being naughty. Aurie had not seen that from her grandfather. Aurie had been very sad for days and had felt very bad because her grandfather was angry with her. She scolded herself because she had not wanted to sit with him and had made him sad. The next time he asked her, she did not dare to say "no." Her grandmother had probably noticed that she was uncomfortable and had reprimanded her grandfather: "The girl is growing up. Let her decide where she wants to sit and don't make such a fuss!" Aurie was very grateful for this support.

"It is important for you to know, Aurie, that there is always trust in the connection with your heart. When you meet the world with the fundamental love that resonates in your heart, then you are also deeply connected with trust and can perceive your inner guidance. Then you can follow the flow of life."

Aurie took a deep breath and continued weaving her flowers together while she thought about what Noah had just told her.

“And what can children do to regain their confidence?” Aurie asked Noah.

Noah smiled at her. "First of all, welcome everything.[1] It's about not judging something as 'good' or 'bad', but accepting it as 'it is'. If we don't welcome what is right now, then we are in resistance. That means separation from trust. It's about meeting the world with open arms. If we show a loving face, we will also see a loving face. The world works like a mirror. The trust you give will be given back to you." 1

“So it’s about me accepting what’s happening?” Aurie asked.

"Yes," said Noah. "It's about going into the experience with complete trust. You don't know the outcome. You don't know why something happens. You don't know what you or anyone else can learn from it."

Aurie thought about it. "And what if it becomes dangerous?" Aurie wanted to know.

"Remember, Aurie, what I taught you about fear. Being afraid when something becomes dangerous is a natural reaction that helps you survive. It is not fed by your thoughts. When you trust, you are in contact with your inner guidance and trust its impulses. Then it is even easier to protect yourself because you react immediately to these subtle impulses. Your own boundaries are activated and perceived. You trust your inner impulses because there is no reason for you to doubt them."

"Ok. I understand that. If I welcome everything, how do I then go about building up my confidence again? We are often disappointed in life," asked Aurie.

"There is a difference here, Aurie," Noah continued. "The trust that depends on disappointment is a small trust. It depends on what happens and how others behave and is always linked to expectations, the situation and the result. We have the same word for it in our language, but they are two completely different things. Great trust knows no mistrust, it does not need external confirmation and it cannot be betrayed. This trust leads you to a level of freedom and joy.

The second thing you can do is to keep connecting with the deep love that I have taught you and to keep your heart open. The connection with love is the prerequisite for trust and the possibility of being guided by the same power that makes flowers grow.[2]

Your heart is connected to this deep level of great trust. This trust is fearless and the antidote to every form of fear. There is no room for fear. This is called self-confidence." Noah smiled at her. "Trust means that you do not allow yourself to be shaken by what is happening around you. You are completely anchored in yourself and in deep love. And thus in trust and open to the experience."

Aurie thought about it. She remembered when she and her parents had once been caught in a very violent thunderstorm in the mountains. It had been like the end of the world. She could feel her parents' fear. The earth had shaken with every thunderclap and lightning had flashed through the dark clouds that had raced across the sky. Aurie had been maybe 4 years old at the time. Her parents had taken her under the roof of a small hay barn. But besides the fear, Aurie could also sense her parents' deep love for her and the protection it provided. She had felt so safe and knew deep down that they would survive the storm.

"It is now your task to learn to trust again, Aurie," Noah continued. "Trust is the prerequisite for bringing your vision and your soul power to earth. At the same time, it is a technique with which you can free yourself from the judgmental mind. Then it is possible to focus on the highest potential in everything and everyone. You see people as they are in their origin, in their pure form. If you keep the focus on your heart power, the deep love, you can direct your perception and decide how you want to act. You come into contact with your inner guidance and this is how you access inner, unlimited wisdom. The more you trust your inner guidance, the stronger your energy field will become. It takes practice to recognize the voice of the heart again and to trust it completely."1 Noah paused.

"And how do you do that?" asked Aurie as she continued to weave her flowers together. "How do you learn to trust your inner voice again and silence doubt?"

"That is the third point. An important distinguishing feature for knowledge that comes from inner guidance: The information from it appears in a flash and is very clear. It does not change either. The information is always the same. The impulse often appears several times until we either follow it or consciously decide against it.

This gentle guidance is borne by a lot of love and is a constant companion that helps you to implement your life's purpose. It radiates deep security and arises from inner silence.

I will now show you a few ways in which you can practice learning to trust your intention and inner guidance again.”

Aurie looked at Noah expectantly.

“First of all, it is important to become aware of where and how you perceive trust in your inner guidance.

When in your life have you done something because you felt a deep trust within yourself? Did the trust come from deep within you and you couldn't put your finger on it? Your head would probably have decided differently. You followed your trust. Where did you feel this trust in your body? How did it express itself within you? How did it feel?

Be as aware of this as you can.”

Aurie realized that she felt a great inner peace when she was completely confident. Her breathing became calmer. And she felt brave and powerful to take this step. But not overconfident, rather strengthened from deep within.

"Exactly, Aurie. It is important that you feel the signs and effects of trust within yourself so that you can follow them. Now we are going one step further. It is an exercise that you can do every day in your everyday life. Almost any situation is suitable as a training opportunity.

Where do I want to sit on the bus? What do I want to eat? Do I want to go to the invitation? How long do I want to stay? What task do I want to do first? Etc.

Examine the situation that is coming your way. What would be the alternative? Compare the two and observe what happens inside you when you imagine doing it. Is it free and open inside you? Does it feel like you can eat what you love most? Or do you feel aversion? Does it feel like you have to eat what you like least? Does your breathing become wide or narrow? Does it become light or dark inside you? Is it warm and soft or cold and hard inside you? Everyone perceives it differently. That's why I'm showing you different options so that you can learn to find your way.

Choose the option that gives you inner peace. It doesn't always have to be the best or worst way. It can also be an option in between. Play around with it and learn to feel where, between these two poles, inner peace begins to spread within you.

Over time, your perception will become faster and more subtle. Then your intuition will be more easily accessible in everyday life and you will work more in harmony with your inner guidance."

"Is that the reason why I can perceive you more and more in my everyday life and follow your impulses? Because I simply follow what I feel the lightness arise within me? And because I no longer question your impulses, now that I have often experienced where they lead me? My life has become much more relaxed as a result. I have such wonderful encounters with people and I learn so much. Above all, I no longer stand in my own way so often with my resistance." Aurie had to smile. Sometimes she was stubborn after all.

Noah grinned at her. "Yes, Aurie, that's exactly what happens when you train your trust. Life is more in flow. You follow the experience and what comes out of it. This puts you more in touch with your soul and your vision. And this allows your power to unfold."

Aurie finished her flower wreath and held it in her hands, lost in thought.

She remembered when she had accompanied her father to the office. He often had to solve very difficult situations and was not very happy about it because it was very stressful for him. He had often told her that he sometimes had the impulse to do something other than what was "logical" but did not dare to do it or dismissed it as "crazy". She had encouraged him to follow his impulse and dare to do it. He had returned to her shortly afterwards, beaming, and muttered something about "coincidence" and "divine providence". By addressing something, the problem was quickly solved and he received support from his colleagues.

Aurie grinned. "Trust," she smiled.

"Yes, Aurie. Life will always throw challenges at you. But you will never have to solve them alone. There will always be support. If you accept what is, practice trust and keep your heart open, then you will be able to perceive this support better and better. Then life will unfold - in joy and inner freedom.

Aurie put her flower wreath on her head and smiled at Noah. He smiled at her from such a depth that her heart warmed and she felt deeply protected. She was so infinitely grateful for his company.

"I have another prayer for you that will help you to deepen your trust. You can repeat it over and over again like a magic formula and connect yourself with the All-One:

Put your hand on my heart, let me feel that you are there.

In your love I can fully develop.

I recognize what the next step is.

Let me serve the creative power completely, love will continue to expand.

Give me strength and accompany me.”

Aurie was deeply touched by these words and looked at Noah.

He stood up and smiled at her. "Your trust is a great gift, dear Aurie. It will touch many hearts and give them courage." The next moment he was gone. But Aurie did not feel alone. She stood up and danced through the garden full of joy and happiness in deep connection.

[1] Young, T. (2019). Welcome to the Heart. A Journey to the Treasure Within. 2nd edition. Andechs: Sunny Days Publishing House.

[2] Williamson, M. (1995). Return to Love. Harmony, meaning in life and happiness through “A Course in Miracles”. 12th edition. Munich: Wilhelm Goldmann Verlag.

© Sara Hiebl