Aurie and Joy

Aurie had absorbed Noah’s prayer deeply and had repeated it to herself over and over again in the last few weeks:

“Put your hand on my heart, let me feel that you are there.

In your love I can fully develop.

I recognize what the next step is.

Let me serve the creative power completely, love will continue to expand.

Give me strength and accompany me.”

It had helped her many times. For example, she had been sitting in her math test and suddenly couldn't remember anything. She had been afraid that she would fail completely and not be able to do anything. Then she had remembered Noah's words and breathed deeply. She had put her hand on her heart and said his prayer. Then she concentrated on her breathing, as Noah had taught her to do, to reduce her stress again. When she breathed in, breathe to the top of her head, when she breathed out, breathe to the soles of her feet.[1] She had breathed deeply and felt how she could relax more again. Then she had looked at the different tasks and checked for herself which task she wanted to continue with. With one task she had felt panic and restlessness rising in her again, with another task she had felt calm and her breathing had become free. So she started with this task. And so she worked her way through her math test. In the end she got a C and was very grateful for that.

Another time she had been in the toilet at school and had met another girl there. She had suddenly had the distinct feeling that the girl was very sad, although you couldn't see it directly. This feeling had appeared several times and as she was washing her hands she had finally asked her: "Tell me, are you sad?" At this point tears began to roll down the girl's cheeks and she had nodded. Aurie had hugged her and the girl had told her that her cat had died during the night. Aurie had simply held her in her arms. After a while the girl had stopped sobbing. She had thanked her: "I really needed that, thank you!"

Lost in thought, Aurie sat under her apple tree, twirling a blade of grass between her fingers as she thought about it. She sighed deeply. There were times when she was so deeply connected and there were times when it wasn't. Like right now. For a week now, she had been very annoyed with her parents. Aurie really wanted to go to an amusement park, but her parents simply wouldn't let her go, let alone take her there. She frowned in displeasure. Too expensive. Pfff! They really spoiled any fun.

"Is that so?" she suddenly heard Noah's voice. Aurie looked up and saw Noah's beaming smile. He was standing right in front of her.

“Yes!” Aurie replied irritably.

"Really? Or are your thoughts ruining your joy?" Noah asked, smiling at her.

Aurie was annoyed. "You could just leave me there. What's the big deal?!"

"What people wish for is not always the best for them. If they always got everything they thoughtlessly wished for, there would be a lot more chaos on earth," Noah said gently.

Aurie looked at him angrily.

"I know, Aurie, you don't want to hear this. But do you want to remain in your resistance or should I help you?" asked Noah.

Aurie sighed deeply. Noah was probably right and she was ruining her own joy with her thoughts.

"Were your thoughts towards your parents in the last week helpful to you? Did they ensure a good relationship between you?" Noah looked at her sternly but lovingly.

Aurie shook her head.

"Then it is important to balance that out now, Aurie. Remember what I taught you about the power of your thoughts."

Oh dear. Aurie realized how careless she had been with her thoughts over the past week and she felt sorry for it. She was angry with her parents for not letting her go, but they really didn't deserve that energy.

“Think about the wonderful experiences you have had with or through your parents,” Noah advised her.

Aurie leaned back and let many beautiful memories wander through her mind. She felt herself relax inside and a smile appear on her face.

“I want to tell you something about joy today,” Aurie heard Noah say after a while.

Aurie sat up curiously.

"There is a joy within you that is independent of what is happening around you. It is always there and accompanies you silently. It nourishes you every day and gives you strength. A silent smile emerges from it. This joy arises from the deep connection and trust in the All-One. It is an expression of the deep love with which you are connected," explained Noah.

Aurie remembered what Noah had once told her about love: “Love is at home within you, it is never separate from you.”

"Exactly, Aurie. That's why this deep joy cannot leave you. It can also be described as bliss. It is like the soil on which the grass grows, which supports everything," said Noah. "This joy is accompanied by quiet amazement at everything that exists." Noah paused briefly.

"And then there is the joy of something, the pleasure. It is always tied to an event. The joy of a gift, of sunshine, of a nice encounter, for example. This joy is an emotion and is triggered from outside. So sometimes it is there and sometimes not. It depends on what is happening at the time."

Aurie began to understand what Noah was trying to teach her. She had been so focused on the joy, the pleasure, of one event, the theme park, that she had completely ignored everything else that was beautiful in her life. As a result, it had become much smaller, she realized with some sadness. "I realize now that I was actually making life difficult for myself," Aurie admitted.

"Yes, Aurie. You have made your joy dependent on what happens," Noah confirmed.

"Joy has two aspects. However, we use the same word for it in our language. But this causes exactly what you have experienced to happen: we link joy to a certain event and forget that it has long been part of us. This is why we often experience disappointment and frustration when the event does not occur. When we are in joy, in fundamental bliss, then we are independent of it. We go with what life reveals to us and often experience surprises. Things happen for us. When we do not fixate on something specific, then more possibilities are attainable and we allow ourselves to be guided more by our inner guidance. The mind judges less in terms of "good" and "bad". And as a result we experience far more joy than we would think possible. This joy is also linked to gratitude and does not end with the experience, but continues. A fundamental bliss that resonates within us.

The joy that is tied to a particular event and clings to it is never satisfied. It is driven by the ego and always wants more. Here you can only lose," Noah explained to her.

Aurie took a deep breath. She was grateful that Noah explained the difference in joy to her. She didn't want to become dependent on anything outside.

"The joy that is linked to an event results from unconscious wishful thinking that is guided by feelings. They are often shaped by our experiences, but also by how we were raised," Noah continued.

“What do you mean?” Aurie asked.

"In some families, it is very important to be successful and to show achievement. If you learn this early on, then unconscious desires arise to achieve something that creates and activates this feeling of success again and again. If this feeling is not there, we experience a lack and are disappointed or frustrated. It is the same with the feeling of having to have something that we have seen in advertising or from other people. The addiction to pleasure and the fulfillment of joy in external sources. This is not possible," explained Noah.

"Thought wishes, on the other hand, are conscious elementals (thought forms that you charge with power) that arise from a deep knowledge of your soul. They are interwoven with the deep needs of your soul that wants to live its vision here on earth.[2] Remember your vision." Noah smiled at Aurie. "You want to show people what possibilities arise when you have trust. You can practice that well with your family." He winked at her.

“And how?” asked Aurie.

"When you feel the need to have a good time with your parents, imagine what it looks like. How exactly does it feel when you spend a good, joyful time together? Imagine it as if the situation is already there. Focus fully on this experience. But be free of the desire for how it should look exactly, for example that it has to be an amusement park. In this way you put energy into the result, but are free of a certain idea of how this will be achieved. Send the thought wish out and trust that it will happen. And then let life unfold. If there is something to do that you can contribute to it, then you will know it and do it. Opportunities will arise that lead to this result, a good, joyful time with your parents, and you can choose. The universe knows more possibilities than your mind can ever comprehend." Noah grinned at her. "When you are free of a certain idea, then you are in harmony with life. You flow with what wants to come to you. Remember what I taught you about the law of attraction, of giving and taking. Abundance can only come to those who already have it and give it," concluded Noah.

"So, if I imagine that I'm having a good time with my parents, as if it's already happening, then it will most likely come because I'm sending that energy out into the world. Do I understand that correctly?" asked Aurie.

"Exactly, Aurie. What that looks like then is to let life unfold and choose from the possibilities that arise. There is a much higher hit rate in that and you will experience fewer disappointments. And your basic joy, the bliss within you, will be complemented by the joy of what you are allowed to experience." Noah was silent and looked lovingly at Aurie.

Aurie looked into his smile and thought about what he had told her about the joy. She noticed that she was calmer and the resentment from the last week had disappeared. "Maybe I can talk to my parents about why the theme park is important to me. And then we can discuss what options there are," Aurie thought.

"That's a good idea," said Noah. "In the next few weeks, Aurie, pay attention to when you can feel the quiet joy that comes from being connected to love. And whenever you feel disappointment or frustration because something isn't happening, examine your wishful thinking."

“I will do that, Noah. Thank you!” Aurie would have loved to hug Noah. But how do you hug an angel?

Noah laughed happily. Of course he had noticed what Aurie was thinking. "Your gratitude in your heart and your deep love are a form of hug." Aurie again felt as if Noah was stroking her head, although he wasn't touching her. He smiled at her and disappeared the next moment.

Aurie thought for a while about what Noah had taught her today. Then she strolled back to the house, whistling happily. She was looking forward to having dinner with her parents, where she could talk to them.



[1] Hawaiian breathing technique, Piko-Piko breathing. Piko means “tip” or “point” in Hawaiian.

[2] Daskalos In: Markides, KC (2004). The Magus of Strovolos. The fascinating world of a spiritual healer. Darmstadt: Schirner Verlag.

© Sara Hiebl